- The Change -

" With great power comes great responsibility "
How true. At least in the case of purchasing power.

How much, things have changed... ever since the break that I've desired... Some quality time for myself to rest, recover and think.
My cough- it still ain't totally subsided yet...but it's always on the mend...more or less the qi flow is getting back. That would require a few more breathing sessions with myself, before i can start jogging to get my physical fitness back.

Things are starting to fall into place now. I'm back on terms with my parents. Reckoned I've elevated myself out of that troubled adolescent phase and onto the young adult era. Finally got some control over my finances with ATM card...even though it's not alot...it's a symbol of my breaking out of that financial grip... and greater freedom.
Of course...all these wouldn't had changed much if I hadn't put myself to consider working. To blatantly show to my parents that I'm trying to find work, going for interview( with a non existent 's'). Guess that changed it. Let them know I've grown up. With luck, at least I've gotten myself a temporary job for a week... For the next 2 weeks...at least my life has a direction.
That pretty much gonna sum up Febuary as well. Work for a week into feb, then class chalet...to spend off that money...Followed by CNY, to get back some money... Then it's 2 or so weeks of oblivion...before the great reckoning, Results Day... the day to finally decide my life... More or less that will herald a good/bad ending and fadeaway till the day I take up arms and enlist.

As Yuhui said on our chance encounter at the market...life is pretty sh*tty for us April Enlistees. You finish your A's, havoc around for the december...then at the blink of an eye, most of the guys you hang out with are gone. Into the army's embrace. Into the working world. To the Armed Forces and the work Force. You drift around, finding yourself *trying* to occupy yourself with a job that's probably far from your ambitions. Trying to be less of a burden, financially stable and look occupied. But deep down, most of us are still empty. There is no soul-filling feeling. From sh*t jobs to mediocre-paying jobs that are better than average. Just trying to get the job done, without much conviction. After that it's the CNY, then with results hanging overhead, affecting our job performances. "Who would really feel like working when the results are about to be released?" True enough. Then there will be the Day of Reckoning itself. Some will smile, others may cry. Some will be stoned into oblivion as they ponder what exactly they can do just next. The following time period till enlistment isn't much good either. For everyone, it's either ' Happy-till-I-can-don't-care-about-the-job-as-I-am-going-army-and/or-uni' mentality or the "Sad-until-nothing-can-be-done-at-all" psychology. What's gonna happen to the work anyways.

Then one will probably realise by now, from 2007 onwards, Varsity terms start from January...interesting. But hold one second..2007...isn't that the year our batch of NSmen finish serving our time? The January Batch can rejoice, for they can finish thier NS and go straight into Uni. But for the April batch, it's 3-4 months balance on hold, and serve-when-you-get-term-breaks as they let you off for university. That is, assuming you are already in there.
So well... life have changed drastically haven't it? A whole major conspiracy written to confuse and mess up the lives of young men.

For now, enjoy what you have (or gonna have). That's what i will do.