- The Change -

" With great power comes great responsibility "
How true. At least in the case of purchasing power.

How much, things have changed... ever since the break that I've desired... Some quality time for myself to rest, recover and think.
My cough- it still ain't totally subsided yet...but it's always on the mend...more or less the qi flow is getting back. That would require a few more breathing sessions with myself, before i can start jogging to get my physical fitness back.

Things are starting to fall into place now. I'm back on terms with my parents. Reckoned I've elevated myself out of that troubled adolescent phase and onto the young adult era. Finally got some control over my finances with ATM card...even though it's not alot...it's a symbol of my breaking out of that financial grip... and greater freedom.
Of course...all these wouldn't had changed much if I hadn't put myself to consider working. To blatantly show to my parents that I'm trying to find work, going for interview( with a non existent 's'). Guess that changed it. Let them know I've grown up. With luck, at least I've gotten myself a temporary job for a week... For the next 2 weeks...at least my life has a direction.
That pretty much gonna sum up Febuary as well. Work for a week into feb, then class chalet...to spend off that money...Followed by CNY, to get back some money... Then it's 2 or so weeks of oblivion...before the great reckoning, Results Day... the day to finally decide my life... More or less that will herald a good/bad ending and fadeaway till the day I take up arms and enlist.

As Yuhui said on our chance encounter at the market...life is pretty sh*tty for us April Enlistees. You finish your A's, havoc around for the december...then at the blink of an eye, most of the guys you hang out with are gone. Into the army's embrace. Into the working world. To the Armed Forces and the work Force. You drift around, finding yourself *trying* to occupy yourself with a job that's probably far from your ambitions. Trying to be less of a burden, financially stable and look occupied. But deep down, most of us are still empty. There is no soul-filling feeling. From sh*t jobs to mediocre-paying jobs that are better than average. Just trying to get the job done, without much conviction. After that it's the CNY, then with results hanging overhead, affecting our job performances. "Who would really feel like working when the results are about to be released?" True enough. Then there will be the Day of Reckoning itself. Some will smile, others may cry. Some will be stoned into oblivion as they ponder what exactly they can do just next. The following time period till enlistment isn't much good either. For everyone, it's either ' Happy-till-I-can-don't-care-about-the-job-as-I-am-going-army-and/or-uni' mentality or the "Sad-until-nothing-can-be-done-at-all" psychology. What's gonna happen to the work anyways.

Then one will probably realise by now, from 2007 onwards, Varsity terms start from January...interesting. But hold one second..2007...isn't that the year our batch of NSmen finish serving our time? The January Batch can rejoice, for they can finish thier NS and go straight into Uni. But for the April batch, it's 3-4 months balance on hold, and serve-when-you-get-term-breaks as they let you off for university. That is, assuming you are already in there.
So well... life have changed drastically haven't it? A whole major conspiracy written to confuse and mess up the lives of young men.

For now, enjoy what you have (or gonna have). That's what i will do.

-1000 Word-

1000 Words-Final Fantasy X-Koda Kumi

Kimi no kotoba wa
Yume no yasashisa kana?
USO wo zenbu
Oikakushiteru
ZURUI yo ne

Tabidatsu kimi ni
Sameta senaka misete
Kiiteita yo
Hitori tatakau no?
ZURUI yo ne

"Kaettekuru kara"
Oikoshiteyuku kimi no koe
Iji hatte
Tsuyoi FURI
Toki wo modoshite
Sakebeba yokatta?
Ikanai de to namida koboshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo

Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wo
Haruka na
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete

Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wa
Kizutsuita
kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
dakishimeru

Yume no tsuduki wa
Kimi wo omoinagara
Ano hi no koto
Wasureta furishite
ZURUI yo ne

"Tegami wo kaku kara"
Shisen sorashita kimi no koe
iji hatte
Tsuyoi FURI
Toki wo modoshite
Okoreba yokatta?
Matenai yo to kata wo otoshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo

Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wo
Mienai
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete

Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Tsukareta
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru

This is the song playing in my background, albeit the Piano Version. There is the English and Japanese versions. For more information, do consult me, or request directly for it.

-Cough: Me vs The World-

Lungs of Pak, Human. 12 Jan 2005. Morning.
A cough. That's what I've got myself into now. Some disease that's threatening to disrupt my breathing capabilities and rupture my oesophagus. Phlegm. The icky goo that's inside. One of the things that do trigger the irritations. Everytime one coughs, thier heart skips a beat. The expulsion of air via coughs are impressively quick and the throat suffers a lot.
Phlegm...Coughing it out would be good but at the very expense of the throat...in the short term...it might be as bad...but in the long term...it's even more beneficial. Coughing it out would eradicate the root of the problem. Hence coughing it out...pretty much the thing to do these days


60km off the coast of Sumatra, Indonesia, Earth. 26 Dec 2004. Morning.
Earth got a cough too. One so bad and violent that it triggered a massive wave, expanding from the epicentre, rippling out towards land masses all around. A major tsunami, created from one landmass hiccup - no, cough - registering 9.0 on the richter scale.... The water wall ripped inland and displaced millions. The aftermath - hundred thousands lost thier lives, even more injured, marine activity disrupted, meaning majority of the people's livelihoods lost. Widespread flooding, epidemics, infrastructural damages, impact on economies. Such a terrible sight. The weeping. The grieve. Comfort came in the way the whole world reacted to the incident. It united the world. Donations and aids came swiftly... Perhaps it was this that made people realise that thier lives are very much in the hands of Mother Nature. We are but many of a more superior species, small and weak, depending on our ingenious creations to enhance our living. We continuously harvest the resources from the natural world for our own exploits while returning to her what we discard. Be forewarned...mother Nature has more up her sleeves. This is really just the beginning of a series of events that could signal the end of mankind. Terra's face could once again change.

-Absence Makes the will Weaker-

It's been a very crap long time since i've done blogging....kinda preferred opendiary a bit more for the simplicity...but oh well...
So much hath happened. I Promised myself to blog after A's, i had lots of contents...but in the end...it doesn't even matter...coz I lose the will to wax lyrical about the stuffs happening daily...besides...they are too fast too furious.
Perhaps now that I've really gotten sick of the excessive time wasting... I shall write...and Write..I shall...
Hence, this post marks the return of the....not king, but Me.